Sitting and looking my demons in their sweet raging face ton..
Added 2023-05-03 14:19:35 +0000 UTCSitting and looking my demons in their sweet raging face tonight.. My nose bled today. It use to happen daily when I allowed my life to be occupied by a horrible, manipulative person who brought trauma on my every waking day. Today I had a challenging but mature conversation that awoke a PTSD response in me. I haven’t had a nose bleed in 3 years. I know I am safe and secure now but that PTSD is asking me to pause, and face put salve on it. So tonight I sit and face my demons. My Independent, self reliant, I’m fine and don’t need anyone demon who loves so deeply that it’s terrified of loving too much and being broken if the object of it’s love ever leaves. This response reminded me I’m not as far along the healing journey as I thought. Healing is not linear, It goes up, and down, and up again. If you face old ghosts tapping your shoulder when you least expect it…have grace with yourself. Give yourself distractionless quietude to go deep and face those uncomfortable feelings. I’m doing it tonight, and with all bravery, I hope I can inspire you to as well. Be Brave Dear one, Be Brave.
