Good morning and thank you for 250k subs ❤️ Real talk, I’m ..

Good morning and thank you for 250k subs ❤️ Real talk, I’m super hard on myself. I’m gonna pour my heart out here for a minute and be really vulnerable. I tend to compare myself to others a lot, but not in a jealous way, more like “I need to work as hard as that person” or “if they’re succeeding that much, that means I’m not working hard enough or putting out good enough content”. I know it’s super unhealthy and I should only ever try to be the best version of myself, but sometimes I do get caught up in the numbers and beat myself up for it. I’ll tell myself “why am I not getting as many likes as I used to? It must be cause people don’t like my content anymore, so I need to make better content” or “why do I have so many followers on social media and yet it doesn’t translate to my free Onlyfans? I guess people just don’t like me that much”. I’ve definitely gotten a lot better over the years and I’m slowly learning to just be happy about what I have. I’m so lucky to have so many amazing people hyping me up every day and that’s all that really matters. But still to this day sometimes I stay awake at night for hours thinking about what kind of content I should do next. I think there’s also a pressure of always making completely new, never-done-before content, or pushing boudaries. At the end of the day, I love my job. I truly love making content for you guys and I love it more as the years go by and I guess maybe that’s one of the reasons why I’m so hard on myself. I want to be able to do this job for at least another 15 years and so I’m scared that people will grow bored of me. Every time a post of mine doesn’t do well I think “well fuck, is this the beginning of the end?” I know some of you are probably thinking that I’m so lucky to have what I have and this all sounds like pointless complaining. I have that thought too, that I don’t have the right to stress about this because I’m so privileged. Cause at the end of the day you guys are so good to me and I just want to be the best for you. Anyways, if you’ve read this far, congrats 😂 There wasn’t really a point to this, I think I just needed to talk. Thanks for listening and thank you for everything 💕 I’ll keep doing my best for you xoxo